Saturday, December 31, 2011

2011 Coming to an End

2011 is coming to a close as I write this post.  It sure isn't ending on a high note.  Obviously I haven't kept up with this blog as I had originally planned.  Dad's passing changed all kinds of plans.  It's painful to think about how he won't be there for all those landmarks ahead of us. All those dance recitals, school graduations, weddings, and everything else he'll miss in the lives of his five grandchildren. Three children are mine the other two are my brothers. One of the reasons we moved to Spring Hill, TN was to be closer to my parents and my wife's parents so that the grandchildren would be able to be more of a part of their lives.  We're fortunate in that regard.  My oldest daughter spent nearly four years with her grandfather nearby.  My brother lives in California and his children were never able to spend the time as my children did.  For that I know we're fortunate but I still feel angry every time I think of dad passing away at only 67.  My own grandfather passed away at 68 and I regretted not being able to know him better as I was only 11 when he died.  I planned on my children having many, many more days than I had to spend with their Dee-da (that's what they called him, phonetically its the reverse of daddy, my oldest daughter called him that when she was learning to speak and it stuck.)

Time will call all of us one day, some sooner than others and we'll never know when that day is to come.  Life goes on with or without out us and sometimes we feel like we're just along for the ride.

The rest of the year was spent coping with the changes.  It's been a difficult several months. Mom is doing good, keeping busy with her sowing and embroidery.  Keeping busy is the only way I can think of to get through the hard times.  The harder you work, the busier you are, the less time you have to think about the pain.  But think you do, always.

Christmas came and my brother and his two girls came for a visit.  It was good to see them again.  Family should be together at Christmas.  2012 will bring new challenges, every year does.  Hopefully it will bring some joy too into our lives.  We're due for some joy I think.

I hope that everyone reading this can move into 2012 with joy and excitement for good things to come.  Always keep hoping for the best!